Today I started thinking... On Thursday, I went to the College of Arts & Sciences and filed the necessary paperwork to change my major to Philosophy. So now I'm officially (unofficially) a Philosophy major, French minor in the College of Arts & Sciences at Howard University. Wow that's a mouthful. Well anyway.. I was thinking today that I really made a big decision. I mean really. I keep talking about this and I feel like I'm making a big deal out of it. But I mean come on... It is a big deal, isn't it? This is going to affect the rest of my life.
...Back to the thinking thing. I was just sitting today and started thinking about why I made the decision in the first place. You know me, got to analyze, re-analyze, and over-analyze everything. So I sat...and thought... Why? I love architecture. Am I running scared? I jumped into this major headfirst with more knowledge than most about what I was getting into. Archi-torture is a running joke among many professionals in the field. You gotta love it to be able to handle the torture. I love it, then why would I leave it?
Who knows... I don't think I'm running scared. And if I was it be something deeper, so much deeper. Because in all actuality, I should be more scared now that my future is filled with so much uncertainty. With architecture, I had a major, a career, a life... a plan. Now... I don't have (excuse my language) shit. I have no plan, I don't even know what I'm going to do with this degree.
Philosophy is so practical, especially now that I don't know what exactly I want to do with my life. The skills I would pick up learning about philosophy are so necessary for life in general; argumentation, articulation, critical thinking, logical processes, etc. I could go on forever. But I still need to think about what I want to do with my life, even if I don't settle on one think. I need to know what my options are.
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