Major Decisions Part II

Today I started thinking... On Thursday, I went to the College of Arts & Sciences and filed the necessary paperwork to change my major to Philosophy. So now I'm officially (unofficially) a Philosophy major, French minor in the College of Arts & Sciences at Howard University. Wow that's a mouthful. Well anyway.. I was thinking today that I really made a big decision. I mean really. I keep talking about this and I feel like I'm making a big deal out of it. But I mean come on... It is a big deal, isn't it? This is going to affect the rest of my life.

...Back to the thinking thing. I was just sitting today and started thinking about why I made the decision in the first place. You know me, got to analyze, re-analyze, and over-analyze everything. So I sat...and thought... Why? I love architecture. Am I running scared? I jumped into this major headfirst with more knowledge than most about what I was getting into. Archi-torture is a running joke among many professionals in the field. You gotta love it to be able to handle the torture. I love it, then why would I leave it?

Who knows... I don't think I'm running scared. And if I was it be something deeper, so much deeper. Because in all actuality, I should be more scared now that my future is filled with so much uncertainty. With architecture, I had a major, a career, a life... a plan. Now... I don't have (excuse my language) shit. I have no plan, I don't even know what I'm going to do with this degree.

Philosophy is so practical, especially now that I don't know what exactly I want to do with my life. The skills I would pick up learning about philosophy are so necessary for life in general; argumentation, articulation, critical thinking, logical processes, etc. I could go on forever. But I still need to think about what I want to do with my life, even if I don't settle on one think. I need to know what my options are.

Procrastination

That evil monster Procrastination has bitten me once again. I finally went to the store to get the stuff for my final yesterday. However, I still haven't started on it and I probably won't get much done on tomorrow. So it's due on Friday at 8 am. That gives me about 4 days working time to the 9 drawings and model, not to mention, the 12 - 15 page paper that I haven't started on either. Yeah this sucks but I brought it on myself as usual. But it's koo, I'll just apply my philosophy, don't worry about it and it won't cause any stress. If it gets done, it gets done; if it doesn't, it doesn't. I know that's kinda crazy with it being a final and ya know determines my passing or not, but whatever that really doesn't matter I just don't want any stress, so I have to take on that attitude. Maybe I should get started...maybe tomor...maybe Monday, definitely Monday. Well out peace, I'm signing off...

International Flava

So lately, I've been uncertain/unsatisfied with my decision to pursue a degree in architecture. Like I mentioned earlier, it's something that I enjoy doing but I never gave myself a chance to enjoy something else. I can see myself designing buildings, both residential and commercial, in the future. As I sat down to study for and take my exam today, I listened in on a conversation a 23 year old architecture male freshman was having with a 17 year old architecture female freshman about his age and delayed entry. He said he saved up and traveled after his senior year in high school, something I've been wanting to do. I really want to go to France and am planning a trip next summer my mother and I. To be a successful architecture student, I believe you have to be a student of the world. What better way to do that than travel and be an international student. I speak the language, sorta. I want to travel soon; however, there's always that nagging voice in my head saying where's the money, you'll fall behind in school, you gotta get shots {YIKES!!}, etc. Ummm...I don't know how I would finance the trip, but I think if I took a year off from school now (especially since I missed that in between senior and freshman year spot) I'll be more apt to accept my fate as a student of architecture and ready and willing to pursue it. I think it'll help a lot with the feelings I've been throwing around lately about getting too deep and wasting time in this major. I'll probably stick with it. Ah well major decisions. Peace out, I'm signing off.

S.S.D.D.

So today is just going from bad to worst. First, I was supposed to wake up at 7:00. But no, what time did I wake up? 9 o damn clock! So I missed my 8 o'clock English class. This was my fourth absence in there. So, what happens now? My grade gets automatically dropped a freakin letter. I missed French yesterday. For some reason I just have not been wakin up correctly. Yeah, Same Shit Different Day. But that's not it. I got my assignment for my final review in Design Comm. today. Yeah I made it to that class 30 minutes late, luckily its a 2 hour course. So yeah, got the assignment, its a doozy. 8 drawings and a model due in 11 days. O yeah he gave us this bullshit quiz on some student presentations from the beginning of the semester that I slept through. I mean wat the hell else was I supposed to do, listen? I don't think so. After that frightening disappointment, I move on to my next class and get my final assignment in there. Ummm...a 12 to 15 page paper on a museum exhibit done in a team of 2-3. This is ridiculous, I don't want nobody else having any kind of effect on my final grade. AAAAAAAArrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, let me chill and sign off before I shoot somebody. Peace out. ;(