...and I'm mad as hell. It looks like its going to be a crappy Christmas this year. Last year it seemed that way too, but I turned it around. This year, I don't think I'm strong enough to do that. I don't even know if I care enough to do that. My favorite holiday...ruined.
First of all, my mother and I always decorate the tree together. This year she called me while I was at school and she was in the process of getting one of her friends to decorate it. I made her wait until I got home. So when I finally did get home, she was upset that I didn't do it as soon as I got there. I guess I can understand that.... kinda... not really. But she kept saying how much she wanted a pretty tree this year. I guess the only way to have a pretty tree is to have it professionally decorated, which is why she was having her friend do it. But what's the fun in that. A lot of times decorating the tree can put me more in the Christmas spirit if I'm not already there. Not this year. It just made me not want to be here even more.
Plus it's just random bullshit happening all around me that just makes me want to scream. It's SSDD around here. People just don't change, no matter how much you think they have or think they really want to. It gets old really quick.
I'm starting to think I really should have stayed at school. (Nobody was jumping up and down excited to see me anyway except Kooley. I can always count on him.) But then I would have been homeless in the freezing cold. Oh well... that probably would have been better than being here burning.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Probably not. Maybe next year will be a better Christmas. We'll see. But it seems to me that people are beginning to think that they are getting too old for Christmas. I really don't get that. Maybe I won't be spending to many more holidays with the drama loving people.
peace (-_-)
1 comment:
u should just come to Atlanta for Christmas...I'll put some boxes under the tree for u..lol
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