Forgotten

I'm feeling forgotten and I wonder why...

Maybe Not...

Now that I think about it, sometimes my don't care attitude is a bad thing. Like school is kind of like a joke to me since I couldn't care less about it. My grades came back shitty because my attitude was shitty. But it's cool. It's not like I flunked out or anything. I got mostly A's. I guess after all the playing around I did this semester, I was expecting a wake up call when my grades came. Well... I didn't get it, so I'll probably play around next semester too. I'm not happy with this, but I really don't know how to change it. Plus, it seems to work for me. Ah well... idk.

Out Peace.

It's Whatever

I need to get my don't care attitude back. I'm starting to let to much stuff get to me. That's why I been so (sad) lately. Normally, I wouldn't care, just brush it off and keep it moving. I guess I'm getting soft. I used to be invincible. My attitude was my force field, my protection from all this mushy crap. I don't have time for that. I don't know how long it's going to take for me to get it back like it was.

Peace.

So, He Didn't Actually Steal It....

...He just borrowed it.

Christmas got a little better. Still not quite what I expected it to be. I kinda got more into the spirit as I was wrapping gifts on Christmas Eve. And then on Christmas Night we had a lot of fun playing games. We played Mad Gab and I found out I'm really good at it. Probably cause I don't speak English well, or so people say, and the clues are a bunch of incoherent nonsense. But yeah, I probably had trouble getting in the spirit because I knew I couldn't buy any gifts this year, and that's my favorite part. But other peoples attitudes didn't help either. Maybe next year will make up for this year.

Peace.

P.S. If anybody out there would like to buy me a plane ticket to Atlanta, it would be greatly appreciated! (^_^)

The Grinch Stole My Christmas...

...and I'm mad as hell. It looks like its going to be a crappy Christmas this year. Last year it seemed that way too, but I turned it around. This year, I don't think I'm strong enough to do that. I don't even know if I care enough to do that. My favorite holiday...ruined.

First of all, my mother and I always decorate the tree together. This year she called me while I was at school and she was in the process of getting one of her friends to decorate it. I made her wait until I got home. So when I finally did get home, she was upset that I didn't do it as soon as I got there. I guess I can understand that.... kinda... not really. But she kept saying how much she wanted a pretty tree this year. I guess the only way to have a pretty tree is to have it professionally decorated, which is why she was having her friend do it. But what's the fun in that. A lot of times decorating the tree can put me more in the Christmas spirit if I'm not already there. Not this year. It just made me not want to be here even more.

Plus it's just random bullshit happening all around me that just makes me want to scream. It's SSDD around here. People just don't change, no matter how much you think they have or think they really want to. It gets old really quick.

I'm starting to think I really should have stayed at school. (Nobody was jumping up and down excited to see me anyway except Kooley. I can always count on him.) But then I would have been homeless in the freezing cold. Oh well... that probably would have been better than being here burning.

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Probably not. Maybe next year will be a better Christmas. We'll see. But it seems to me that people are beginning to think that they are getting too old for Christmas. I really don't get that. Maybe I won't be spending to many more holidays with the drama loving people.

peace (-_-)

Midnight Train to Georgia

So I'm going home tomorrow... well, today I guess. For some reason I don't really want to go home. I feel like it might be a little hectic at home. Plus I'll be working so I can buy some Christmas gifts. I want to just chill. Matter of fact, I need to just chill. These last few days have been pleasant. It's been me and the Favorite hanging out, and occasionally the Strange One too. The Funny One left a week ago. When I go home, I'll be without my children for almost a month. How sad. We're going to have to do conference calls and maybe schedule a visit. I guess I should be a little bit more excited to be going home seeing as I have peeps to see there also. But I know I will be walking back into a different world of responsibility when I just escaped one a few days ago. I don't even have a full week to relax. But... ah well. That's life. Everything can't be a hundred percent great.

Tuo Ecaep...

I'm Bored...

...Like deathly bored. I have a few more days until I go home and I don't know what to do with myself. We just been chilling trying not to go crazy. Today we decided to play dress-up. It was kinda hilarious. I don't know what to do next. It's not like I can sleep the time away, unless I take one of my sleeping pills... But then, it's no telling when I might wake up.

Ah well. Out peace.

Toe Pick!

So... yesterday I took my children ice skating. They we're mostly inexperienced having never been before. I myself hadn't been ice skating in years. I think the last time I went I was in fourth grade. It was a lot of fun. I think the kiddies enjoyed it. I had so much fun. So... we're going again on Saturday. I'm so excited. Yaaaayyyy!

Peace out. I'm signing off.

By children, don't think I have four babies running around. I'm too young for that.

Almost Over

Finals are kicking my bootay right now. Not really... I'm just procrastinating.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got my ear pierced.

:(

I think I've lost my sense of humor....

Mission: Failed

So...yeah.... My ear is naked. I went to the mall to the shop to get my ear pierced. When I asked them to do it, they said they didn't do that type of piercing. But when I was there Wednesday, they said they did and that's why I decided to come back. So Ashley, my favorite child, got her ear pierced alone. Awww.... But she took it like a "G".

So we decided to stop at the tattoo shop on our way home. As we approached it, we saw that the lights were on and there were people inside. I started to get happy. So I pulled on the door handle, only to be rejected by a locked door. That sucks. So I'm going tomorrow when I get out of class. Maybe then I'll have something to show.

Things To Do

I have a few portraits to start and finish in about a week and a half. Shouldn't be too hard.

I need to learn flash and website design so I won't have to rely on other people. Or if someone on here wants to teach me... Ya know just go over the basics.

I need to get my life together.

I might need to do some school stuff, but that's relatively unimportant right now.

I need to make my photography portfolio, mount some photos and what not.

I need to make some money.

I wanna learn how to snowboard, but I really don't think that's going to happen this week.

Travel abroad... Travel period sometime soon.

Oh yeah. I need to go to the mall so I can get my ear pierced today.

I think that's about it. Ah well... Peace Out...

I guess I can post pics of mi ear