Reevaluate...

I'm sitting here about to watch RENT for the umpteenth thousandth time just thinking...I really need to reevaluate my lifestyle. My life is so out of focus right now. It's ridiculous. Lately, I've been feeling myself veering away from the old me. I know change is inevitable, but these changes aren't the changes I want to see. In the beginning of the school year I was feeling a bit like a lowlife. Not being able to focus, not caring, and just saying f*** everything and everybody. My feelings from the end of senior year carried over to this year. Exactly what I didn't want to happen, but I called it and it did happen. I didn't want to start off college with a I don't care attitude. But I did, and now I am attempting to fix it. There were a few points this semester when I felt like I was getting my life on track, but overall, it's not where I want it to be. Thus the need for the reevaluation. But ah well, it will get there eventually. I want to feel like me again and get out of this rut. I think I know what I need to do. The solution is probably floating around somewhere in my subconscious, just chillin and waiting for me to discover it. I will soon enough and really get my lifestyle in order. Well peace out, I'm signing off.