19.12.06

What About Your Friends




So you graduate. And for the whole summer before college you make plans, but half of them don't come through because everybody's working or hanging with their significant other. So August sometimes September comes and you haven't seen as much of your homies as you like but you gotta go. So you leave and get to school. You don't talk to your home friends that much cause you're on different schedules and building separate lives. You make new friends and you have your old friends.

So home friends versus school friends. Does this become a war over your quality time spent? Are you leaving old friends in the past once you develop new relationships? No, I don't think so. All my life, I was never really big on the friend thing. I kinda got trust issues. Long story. So I always had acquaintances, close acquaintances, and those who I knew had my back, but no "friends." Fakeness is unforgivable and I don't like fake people so to avoid finding out u have a fake friend, u just don't call anyone ur friend. That was my solution.

Because of this philosophy, I never let anybody get too close. No one wants to be let down, disappointed. It hurts the most when it comes from somebody you care about. So I had a "friendless" existence. I mean I had my homies and I was there for them when they called. But I never called on them, I carried my own burdens for fear that they would drop them.

These past couple of months away at school, I've realized you do need friends. You need somebody in your corner at all times. And so I came to the conclusion that those crazy people I left behind are my true friends. That's my homies. I got them and they got me. But could I have friends like that at school too. I mean is that allowed. How can you have as meaningful relationships with people that you've been knowing for some months as the ones that you've developed over years. Is it possible? Yeah. Sometimes people just click. I got my homies at home and my homies at school. They all got my back, and I got theirs. I hope they can all get together and we become one big happy family.

I love my girls. And I'm happy to be blessed with this diverse group I've stumbled upon. I feel uberlucky. On that note I'll cheerily sign off...16:07

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Talking about making you cry, girl my eyes got all teary!!! I knew how you felt about the whole trust issue and I was like that for a long time, I'm glad you finally got over it just like me. (Even though you still have to be aware of certain people.) I love you guys!!!!

Anonymous said...

Okay so the person anonymous isn't anonymous is me, Fi!!!! I just didn't know what i was doing!!! Love you Wendi Joi!