Reflection

My latest project is a self-portrait and I'm scared as hell. Why?

...Because 1) portraits are my favorite subject and 2) I think self-portraits are phenomenal because you can see what the artist thinks of him or herself. So much personality comes out in a self-portrait. I put self-portraits on a pedestal and I don't want to fail trying to climb up there.

But that's not going to keep me from doing one. But I'm wondering if someone will be able to understand one thing about me by looking at this portrait. That's what I'm shooting for. I hope I succeed.

Until next time.... Tuo Ecaep

Addendum to Shopping List 2008

So yeah... I also wanna get a new stereo for my car with the in-dash GPS and iPod control and all that good stuff. $1500.00

I probably need some new beats too but that can wait.

Le Futur

So I realize that I haven't blogged in a while. And it's not because I've been way too busy, but it has been the usual...I've been being me, a lazy bum. Ah well...it's not like I can turn back the hands of time and post more.

I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately. I've mostly been thinking about my future, and I've found out that I'm slightly worried about it. Only slightly (^_^). I'll be a junior in the fall. Then there's graduation a year after that. Although, I might have to be here an extra semester or two since I changed my major.

Anyway, I've been trying to figure out what I want do as far as a career. I always say I don't want a 9 to 5 or a regular job, and that still holds. While I feel the need for freedom, I also feel the pull of practicality. So, lately I've been leaning (at a very sharp angle I might add) towards becoming an art teacher. I've been trying to find ways to go from a philosophy degree to art to education as a master's. Should I get a graduate degree in art history or studio art and then get teacher certification? Or should I go to a program that has art education as a graduate degree (those are few and far between) and take the extra year of foundation courses in art history and studio art? I know I need formal training in art to teach it. Just having a smidgen of talent isn't enough. Anyway, I want formal training. Actually, I've been craving it and trying to figure out how to work it into my schedule.

Ah well...Peace

Friendship

Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everybody sees it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings.

-idk

I am...

...who I am

Excitement

I'm getting back my creative juices. Yay! I'm so excited because I haven't been able to produce anything meaningful for quite some time. I was stuck in a rut but I think I might be slowly pulling myself out of it. I want rearrange sometimes in my room (like I don't do that enough) to give me a better feel. This is by no means the best artistic space that I have been in. Actually it kinda sucks out your will to create. But I'm going to have to fight pass that. Maybe I should get a  new journal and sketchbook to celebrate. O how I love to crack open a new one and figure out what kind of story it's going to tell. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I better hop to it.

Peace.

Unfulfilled Promises

What am I talking about. I would say the title speaks for itself. I'm tired hearing the words "...I promise..." and nothing comes to fruition. It's bringing me to a point where if a statement is preceded by, followed by, or includes the words "I promise," I don't believe it. I don't even want to hear it. That's so sad. Promises are sacred. Especially pinky promises. When you pinky promise someone, at that very moment, you're making a lifetime commitment to honor that promise. All you have is your word, when people lose faith in that... You have nothing. No wonder why I don't trust people. They break pinky promises.